My heart has been passing, notes that will not burn. I yearn for more but all I see is the sky falling right at my eyes. What should I do when I know time is running out, everyone soon will be gone and I will be in a space full of spiders and demons that I know are hiding... waiting for their time to pounce. My mind tells me about stories of thorns, creatures ripping apart flesh but I don't feel anything. I am numb. Constant...pattern. I will be numb, I will fall and then I will not feel anything anymore. My hand reaches out in the vast ocean, I am drowning and I see the light, above the water the light shines. How can I reach the light if I don't know how to swim. Everyone is gone. I am all alone. If any shall come close to me, my body will pierce them. Stabbing them with blades and choking them. All I know, is that everything will work out as they say, my hope is not fully gone. So I will live with this unknown and see if there is really any demons waiting to pounce, or if spiders will crawl on my skin to annoy and freak me out. I will find out if I will be chained by fear or if I will be supported by The Hand of His. My heart will soar, if I shall not follow the path of my own parents. If I shall follow the path of my parents, destruction, death, misery, torture, non-satisfaction and no love shall constantly rein in my life by that chosen path. The only thing I know, is that I must live on.